2 Things i feel (yeah, yeah, Bah-Humbug to me):
1) Christmas is a Hallmark holiday, an entire season dedicated to trap consumers.
It's an excuse to sell cards, excessively spend hard-earned money on "things", and a damn good excuse to be "nice" (why can't we be nice all year round?). Why can't we give each other presents whenever we feel like it? Is it necessary to have to do it all at the same time? It's a season that painfully reminds me of how much money i DON'T have. =p haha
Perhaps if i had wads and wads of cash, and an unlimited credit amount, i'd be happier around Christmas time... actually, i'm almost sure of it. Then again, i'd probably be happier all year round. Not to say that cash makes me happy- but it sure as hell HELPS.
2) Christmas is for kids. If I didn't have Dylan, i don't think the tree would even have made it up this year. But it's part of our childhood. I remember having so many happy memories of Christmas growing up. So the last 4 years have really just been dedicated to him. I believe a good childhood deserves good Christmas memories.
The anticipation, the excitement, the surprises. Wanting to peek at your presents (i always did that), looking forward to Noche Buena.
I mean, for kids, they don't have the liberty of buying themselves whatever they want, whenever they want it. They don't make their own money, so they depend on Mom and Dad. So putting everything you want down on a list and expecting to get MOST of it (if not ALL) in ONE day- that's pretty damn cool.
So where does that leave us?
I'm a parent, so Christmas is for Dylan. I don't know why, but i have this strong feeling that i'm SUPPOSED to always be with my family when the 24th rolls around.
Christmas is when i don't mind tipping the cab drivers more than i usually would. If they ask for extra, i don't question it, and i don't get as worked up as i usually would. I figure, they're trying to make that extra few pesos just like i am, so they can give their kids something nice or provide a really good Christmas dinner for the whole family. Tough living in a 3rd World Country.
Christmas is that time of year when you find out who really gives a shit. haha
Be it a small greeting, a short message, or a little something- knowing that someone out there remembered you on a holiday that people consider so overrated these days... it think it's still pretty sweet.
I have a handful of people that i don't hear from the whole year, but when Xmas or my birthday rolls around, i'll bet money on it that i get a text a little after midnight or a message waiting for me in my inbox. Maybe it's routine, but for me, it's still something.
Christmas is that time of year i feel like my pockets are completely empty, but i look around and realize that i'm also very lucky. I don't think about it as often as i should, but i have so many things to be thankful for and a lot to smile about.
2008 is almost over and it happened in a blink of an eye. I wonder if this is what it's like to grow older. I remember being a kid of around 9-10 years old and it took FOREVER for Christmas to come around. These days, they whiz right on by.
It was a crazy year. I'm hoping 2009 bring even better things.
Chances are, i won't write anything til next year...
so Happy Christmas guys...
Inner Peace, True Love, & Everlasting Happiness.