Thursday, August 27, 2009

"i have been struggling for four years with what some people struggle their entire lives with- being in love with someone you cant seem to be with. I have come to realize in these past four years, that love is not as hard as some people make it to be. When you are in the infinite state of infatuation, a feeling no word or emotion could ever come close to describing, you feel as though this life is worth living. And when you lose it, it's unreal. It's a pain i can't describe. Every muscle in my body tenses and my heart pounds so hard i feel like it will kill me. The thing i have learned most, is that this pain proves to me that my heart felt a happiness i may never feel again. I now know from my suffering that the time period in which i did feel this happiness was worth it. There are few moments in life in which i believe we find true happiness, a moment in which everything stands still and every emotion thought or worry is gone, and you're a single soul floating in a world of ecstasy. It's a feeling i wouldn't trade for anything. There is no real conclusion to this, because its indescribable. I do know, that this pain i have felt, this feeling of hopelessness, only shows me i did once fall in love. And every ounce of faith in me is devoted to the thought of reliving the happiness. I will always have hope."


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