Sunday, February 28, 2010

“To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But then, one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer; not to love is to suffer; to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be happy, one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness.”
Woody Allen

Why so?

I tried uploading photos to make a new album on Facebook only to find that i needed to install some program on my computer and when i tried it it wouldn't do it so now i can't make that album. Why does it have to be so complicated?
Damn you Facebook. Damn you.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Arbitrary Mind Picks #44

1. Earthquakes, tsunamis, snow storms & floods... someone done did something to piss off Mother Nature. *shudder*

2. I found out that when Dylan is dead silent... it means he's up to no good.

3. Healthy food can taste good too. Well, supposedly. I shall put this to the test and put all my yummy heart-disease-waiting-to-happen food on hold.

4. Bought 8 DVDs. Only 2 of em out of 5 were good. 3 more to go...

5. The internet is starting to bore me. I need to find new things on here to read.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

sad. somewhat true.

That's my man.

Thea: Your birthday is coming up soon. What do you wanna do?

Dylan: I want a party. *smile*

T: Oh, really? And what would you have at this party?

D: Balloons!!!

T: Balloons? What kind of balloons?

D: Balloons on string! With lots of colors!

T: Ok, balloons. What else?

D: Cake!

T: Ok. What kind of cake?

D: Chocolate cake.

T: Ok. What else?

D: My friends... *smile*

He's turning 6 this year. I can't believe it.

i want one.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

“I’ve lived through times I would never have thought I was capable of, and I’m much less afraid than I used to be. The process of wounding awakens us to our strength… It shuffles our values, and the top priority is never what you thought it would be. It’s never about perfection or power. It always turns out to be about love. Knowing ourselves to be vulnerable and our time here is limited, we’re freed to live more passionately and fully than we have before, to discover what’s worth fighting for and who we are…real strength lies buried at the depths of any wound we have survived.”
— Unknown

Lego Sterling Silver Ring

Monday, February 22, 2010

Arbitrary Mind Picks #43

1. That feeling when you step through the front door of your home after an exhausting trip- awesome.

2. When you reach that point of gratification when you know you've made the right decision- awesome.

3. Discovering the conclusion when you've been confused for so long- awesome.

4. Trying a new dish and completely falling in love with it- awesome.

5. Constantly being surrounded by people i care about and vice versa- awesome.

6. My life- awesome. I am grateful for this every single day.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

“The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart.”

Elisabeth Foley

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Oh, To Breath Again

It's official. I have caught Dylan's cold.
You know it's serious when words that begin with the letter "N" start sounding like they start with a "D".
"I dow i ca'd breath through my dose..."

I am slowly caving into the idea of starting a daily habit of taking vitamins. You know, take that Vitamin C, build up your immune system. Drink lots of water, eat tons of greens. Go for runs in the morning and take processed meat out of your diet. The so-called "healthy living".

But see, the thing is- i can never remember to take vitamins. Taking folic acid everyday when i was pregnant was hard- and i HAD to take that. Getting me to take medication when i'm sick is like pulling teeth. I can never drink water (especially when there's coffee or green tea readily available) and vegetables wilt in my house because nobody touches em except me and i feel like it's a waste (and i can't buy em in smaller bundles). I prefer lying down on my couch in the morning instead of sweating out in the street and i love, love, absolutely LOVE my bacon.

So what's a girl to do?
Make sacrifices and change that lifestyle because i know in the long run i'll be thanking myself for it. I don't see what's so healthy about making yourself miserable.

Man, making health choices can only mean one thing- i'm getting old.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Let's Get Artsy

Paid a visit to the BenCab Museum with the Tisoys last weekend when they drove all 5 hours up here to surprise the living b'geezus outta me (Oh, and they did! I was so surprised that i started screaming- my neighbors probably thought i was being attacked).

This museum is one of the best i've ever been to. Gorgeous! I recommend everyone who has any interest in art to stop by whenever they're in the area. They have huge pieces that would look absolutely stunning in my living room. This visit inspired me to start collecting art. Perhaps when i start rolling around in dough.

The museum is 15-20 minutes (by car) away from the center of town. It is a wonderful structure that sits quietly on the side of this narrow road. You don't realize the beauty of it all until you step inside and all its glory is revealed. There's an organic cafe at the basement of the building which opens up to this amazing garden. There's a river at the bottom of the cliff and this incredible building (we're assuming is BenCab's house/studio) to the right side of the museum that looks absolutely beautiful. I can only imagine what it would be like to live there.

Yeah, but anyway, i don't wanna hype it up too much. So there.

Dylan had a great time- well, once he got past the asking if we could go home 20 million times and discovered there was a bridge in the garden 3 floors down.

We'll be sure to plan another visit when the next rotation comes in.

Monday, February 15, 2010

“Shrimp is the fruit of the sea. You can barbecue it, boil it, broil it, bake it, saute it. They’s, uh, shrimp kabobs, shrimp creole, shrimp gumbo, pan fried, deep fried, stir fried. There’s pineapple shrimp and lemon shrimp, coconut shrimp, pepper shrimp, shrimp soup, shrimp stew, shrimp salad, shrimp in potatoes, shrimp burger, shrimp sandwich. That—That’s about it.”
— Bubba | Forrest Gump

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Arbitrary Mind Picks #42

1. Contrary to my recent post, i am an avid non-participant of Valentine's day. Only because i believe in celebrating love everyday and not for the sole purpose of fulfilling some made-up holiday's calling. It's more of a Single's Awareness Day if anything.
However, i always appreciate a sweet gesture- holiday or no holiday. I'm a sucker for that stuff.

2. I have never received an entire bouquet of roses for Valentine's Day until today. True story.

3. I once told myself that the guy that presented a blue rose to me would be the man i would marry. I retracted that thought when a "secret admirer" sent me a blue rose while i was at work. I was 17 years old and obsessed with the color blue.

4. I have had my heart broken more than i have broken hearts.

5. I have always given relationships 100%. It was always never good enough. Something always happened where everything would fall apart. Then somewhere down the line i fell in love. It was the one that made me realize why it didn't work out with anybody else.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

“Love is a game that two can play and both win.”
— Eva Gabor

Stupid Cupid

So you wanna know what happiness is?

"It’s waking up in the middle of the night for no reason, shifting under the blankets and feeling the heat of the person next to you. You turn around and see them in their most peaceful, innocent, and vulnerable state. They breathe as though the weight of the world lays on anyone’s shoulder but their own. You smile, kiss their face in the most gentle manner so as not to wake them. You turn back around and an involuntary grin forms on your own face. You feel an arm wrap around your waist, and you know it doesn’t get any better than this…"

I love you.
...and I miss you- every. single. day.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Arbitrary Mind Picks #41

1.Wow. This laptop is sssssslllllloooooo-o-o-o-ooooo-ooooooowwwww.

2. Chocolate pie makes me happy.

3. "Family first, always".
Say what you mean and mean what you say.
Actions speak louder than words.
Yes, i'm calling it out.
You couldn't be a bigger poser even if you tried- you got this. All you. In the bag.

4. I'm immune to coffee.

5. Hello, El Nino.

6. Earthquakes at the 3.5 magnitude is enough to make me feel like my stomach is in my throat. Let's not go any higher, ok? Thanks.

7. Witnessing the deterioration of my hometown is upsetting. To see how inconsiderate some people are is just disappointing.

8. It's been almost 2 months... and the holiday weight is straight chillin.

9. Suspicious how i look forward to weekends. No matter how much sleep i get, i just don't like waking up at the crack of dawn.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Because I'm a Googler

...and i love Superbowl Ads. =)

Released Today

Oh, how i wish...

Things To Come

How Interesting

I had an interesting weekend.

I hosted a wedding- which is something i have never done before but was certainly up for the task. I haven't done any real work in about 5 months and i definitely miss the feeling of being self-sufficient. Surprisingly, i did quite alright. Even if i do say so myself- i did a lot better than i expected i would. I was approached by several people to congratulate me on a job well done and i left the party feeling useful, successful, and quite pleased with myself.

I hung out at a bar and listened to an excellent karaoke performance. I think they were pulling our leg because they were probably professionals who decided to hang out that night. It was the best rendition of "Bakit Ngayon" i have ever heard in my whole life- in karaoke, at that! In fact, the duo did so well that other customers started throwing requests their way in which they happily obliged.

I drank beer. Yes, believe it or not- that is interesting.

I made the best steak of my life. Accompanied with grilled veggies and bacon mashed potatoes. I was in heaven. That stove-top grill is worth every single peso i spent on it.

The photo is not so great because... um... well, as you can see- i had already started eating. Decided to just take a quick snapshot and continued on with stuffing myself silly.

I endured karaoke on a Sunday night. The terrible kind. ON A SUNDAY.
So i've been told that it just might be another lesson i need to learn. In my defense, i have tolerated this kind (and much worse) of a hubub in the past.
-ghastly karaoke in the wee hours of the night.
-roaring jeepneys (constantly) during a critical part of a movie i'm watching on DVD.
-blazing heat during the hottest days of summer.
-shin deep flooding outside my doorstep on the craziest downpours of rainy season.
-wrecking balls and drills outside my window on the worst hangover days i've ever experienced.
-6 flights of stairs/3 stories climb on drunken nights
-a shower with no heater
-a refrigerator that barely refrigerates
-an electric fan that barely fans
That was 10 years of my life. In a nutshell.
So yes- i have learned that lesson, and i learned it well.
My guess is that this is the lesson where it teaches me to start asserting my rights... *sigh*

I made bombass chili and i actually ate the beans! Thanks to my new pressure cooker... it was worth every peso i spent on it (as well).

And that's that.

Lone Rangers

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Friday, February 5, 2010

"I think every day should be a day of romance. Then, on Valentine's Day, you should get to tell whoever you hate that you cannot stand them. There would be one day of hating, and 364 days of love."
~Ashton Kutcher (on Valentine's Day)

Arbitrary Mind Picks #40

1. I obviously love coffee. I wish i loved water just as much. Actually, i wish i loved water everyday like how i love it on a morning of a vicious hangover... because those are the days i understand that water means life.

2. Is it the new thing that when you say you'll meet at 4pm, you should be ready to meet at 5? Then why can't people just say 5pm and show up on time? It's confusing.
I just realized yesterday, as i was walking towards a meeting, that it is vital to know the personality of the person you are meeting with- well, whether they are punctual or not, specifically. Because i rushed to that meeting to make it on time... only to have to wait 35 minutes.

3. I don't like waiting.
Ironic, i'm in a long distance relationship.

4. Majority of the people in this town still mistake me for a Korean. I don't know why.

5. I spoke to a bride and groom to-be yesterday... and all the while, i'm thinking, "aww" or "i wonder what my wedding will be like". A designer dress, orchids & tiny lights, childhood sweethearts, and a grand ballroom decorated to perfection... yet i've never seen a more non-enthused bride.

6. A DJ and an MC... clearly, two different things, entirely different letters, completely different occupations. I've never once mentioned that i was an MC. Only always do i say i used to DJ. Why am i getting phone calls with offers to work as an MC?

7. I miss my girls. I really do.
The drinking- not so much.

8. I see smokers everywhere. It's an interesting process to observe- the art of smoking. Sometimes, i feel like i would like to sit with cigarette at hand and puff away. The second i have a chance to... i don't.
9. Factors that contribute to my lacking sense of "style":
-taking cabs.
-scary laundry lady.
How sad and completely limiting.

10. You really can't avoid drama no matter how hard you try. It exists everywhere. The plague doomed to haunt human existence for all eternity and at the same time the supposed factor that proves you're alive and living.
Personally, i don't care for it much.

Einstein said it

“Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I’m not sure about the former.”

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

[my words to the laundry lady...]


Remember that cozy little inn Dylan and i were living in before we moved into the apartment? We lived there for 2 whole months. It was nice and quiet. Really comfortable and very peaceful.
Well, that's a thing of the past. They turned the ground level restaurant into a "music bar" (at night, I guess). Live bands. Drunk people. Bucket loads of fun...
I live right across the street and i keep my windows open at night. Lucky me...
This "quiet side" of town just went to the dogs.
Gone are the days of deafening silence and the lonely sound of crickets... now it's "I'll love you more today than yesterday, but not as much as tomorrow" and "You've lost that loving feeling..." Now it's gone. Gone. Gone.

What is this world coming to?
“Tell a man there are 300 billion stars in the universe and he’ll believe you. Tell him a bench has wet paint on it and he’ll have to touch it to be sure.”
— Murphy’s Law

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Arbitrary Mind Picks #39

1. I'm blessed with way more than i could possibly hope for right now. It's overwhelming and i'm grateful. Plenty of people would love to be in my shoes these days. I am the epitome of chill- and i absolutely LOVE it.

2. I know i'm getting old due to my pathetic attempt at running (or walking really fast). It's not cool to have to catch your breath every 2 minutes (and these are non-smoking lungs!). My 5 year old can run 5x farther than me without a single pause and with less time to rest. I need to up my game.

3. It's time to get contact lenses.

4. I never thought, in my wildest imagination, that i would ever be the parenting type. I was clueless about being a mother (which is how every mother starts out, i guess). I didn't even think i was very fond of children, to be honest with you. And then Dylan came into my life and the universe decided to impart wisdom upon me.
I'm proud of how far i've come. I love being Dylan's mom and i think it's safe to say that Dylan thinks i'm pretty kickass.
I got lucky- my kid's pretty darn good.

5. I have my priorities straight... which isn't something i can say for a lot of people, and to tell you the the truth, it took me a while to get here. But i made it... and it feels really good. =)

Light Me Up