My Everyday

Arbitrary Mind Picks #76

1. I will avert a free ride if it means dodging an awkward conversation (or worse, awkward silence). It has dawned on me that i have lost the knack to strike up natural interest in whomever, wherever. I used to be excellent at it. That's just not the case anymore.

2. I will look for the slightest excuse to stay home and avoid going to school. This is a natural urge and i battle with it for at least 5 minutes everyday before getting out of bed.
This is coming from the child who never needed prodding to make it to class on time and was always up and about before her mom knocked on her door for her wake-up call.
How times have changed.

3. I am sold on the iPhone and swayed far, far away from the Blackberry bandwagon.
BECAUSE- i play more games than i actually make phone calls or text so it just seems more appropriate. Plus, i'm addicted to Angry Birds and it'll take some serious persuasion on your part to pry me away from it.
Note: Bribing me with food usually works best.

4. I tidied up for 2 days straight before the weekend began... so why does it look like my apartment hasn't been cleaned in over a month? *sigh*

5. I forget how much buried treasure i have sitting in my iTunes until i decide to clean it up for the hell of it. I have thousands and thousands of music to go through... this should be fun.

6. The Philippines has a lot of holidays.

7. Finally got a microwave in my kitchen (2 weeks ago)... i still haven't gotten accustomed to using it again. I think i've used it twice.
My brother, on the other hand, is over the moon.
Well, i can finally buy microwaveable popcorn again. That's always a good thing.

8. My gut feeling is saying that the universe has already picked the setting for the next phase of my life- the beach.
What do i do with all my layered clothing?

9. Prosciutto for breakfast. An awesome way to start a day.

10. I still find it unbelievable, the douche bags i dated in the past.
And i honestly thought i was mentally stable. What a joke.

From My iPod on a Rainy Day

I wholeheartedly, fully recommend.
With love.

"Crazy isn’t being broken or swallowing a dark secret. It’s you or me amplified. If you ever told a lie and enjoyed it. If you ever wished you could be a child forever."
- Susanna Kaysen (Girl, Interrupted)

The next phase of my life, perhaps?

"When you’re having mood swings, and he lets you scream at him, throwing up your emotions, getting angry with him, and he says, ‘Anything for you’ … that’s love."
- Anonymous

Oh, Yes I Did

I gave myself a haircut last night.
Surprisingly, i'm quite happy with it.

Arbirtrary Mind Pick #75

It's blasting all over the news, the blame game begins, the country is bowing its head in shame, the critics are brutal- but nonetheless only honest, tourism is out, and people will be talking about this for a hot minute.

What's with the buses lately?

Bus crash in Benguet- kills 41.
Bus collides with car- kills 3, including a 2009 beauty queen.
Bus held hostage- tourists killed.
(R.I.P)

I'm gonna be staying in Baguio for a while.
Ay, Pilipinas... *shaking head*

"Why can’t I try on different lives, like dresses, to see which fits best and is most becoming?"
- Sylvia Plath

"I don’t know how to answer. I know what I think, but words in the head are like voices underwater. They are distorted. "
— Jeanette Winterson

All Mine.

My life.

"The best part of love
is losing all sense of reality."

How does one get to the point where you need certain substances to enhance an experience or deal with a situation? When did being yourself begin to bore you to death or drive you up the walls? How is it that everything you had just wasn't enough?

Stop.
Take a look around. Think about what you're doing.
If you know what you're getting into- by all means.
If you're second guessing yourself- don't do it.

"A man will treat you as you let him think you should be treated."

Word.

"Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are a good person is a little like expecting a bull not to attack you because you are a vegetarian."

— Dennis Wholey

“I’m thinking that sometimes you just have to make the decision to be happy. Just realize that things aren’t ever what you hoped they’d be. Not ever. For anybody. The only thing that separates one kind of person from another is that there are some who stay angry about it and there are some who accept what comes their way.”

Arbirtrary Mind Picks #74

1. Once again, i smell the neighbor's cooking... it's driving me crazy, i just wanna know what it is.

2. It's already mid-week and i can safely say that i'm ALMOST back to normal. These weekend trips to Manila really know how to knock the wind out of a girl.

3. Been struggling through the first season of Glee.
Not a fan. Never will be.
Fast forward has never been a better friend.

4. Eminem is the only white guy that should ever be allowed to rap. Ever.

5. My body has been sore for 6 days... i will never forget my neck pillow again.

Random Run-in

I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A Death. What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch and you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities. You become a little baby, you go back into the womb, spend your last nine months floating... and you finish off as an orgasm.

- George Carlin

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Bill

Artwork by Francoise Nielly

Arbirtrary Mind Picks #73

1. Waking up at 6am isn't as hard as i anticipated. It's awesome considering i was painfully dreading it.

2. I can't seem to keep my room tidy for more than 3 days.

3. Cooking becomes challenging when i eliminate frying as an option.

4. I still can't write anything and the spam happening on this blog is annoying.

5. I am going to will myself to pilates tomorrow morning. This must be done and it won't roll until i actually start.
Meh. Here goes nothing.

Love is wanting to kick anyone's ass and feeling pure hatred when they hurt your little one.
Love is giving away the last piece of salmon sashimi even though you were dying to have it yourself.
Love is getting up 18 times in the middle of a movie to cater to someone else's needs.
Love is walking 2 miles uphill carrying a 35lb child because he says he's feeling sick and he can no longer walk.
Love is waking up at 6am to make sure everything is ready for school.
Love is staying in on a Friday night, reading him a book, and tucking him in instead of acting like a regular 27 year old and going out with friends.
Love is spending your last 100 pesos on something he found at the toy store instead of spending it on Starbucks.
Love is going home early, even if you wanted to stay, because he's tired.
Love is asking for a hug or a kiss every 2 minutes, not because you want it, but because you wanna see if he'll still do it.
Love is going for that hug and kiss every 2 minutes, not because you want to, but because she asked.

Kiddie Party

Can you see it?

-Mumford And Sons, After The Storm

I Still Can't Write

“The only way you can write the truth is to assume that what you set down will never be read. Not by any other person, and not even by yourself at some later date. Otherwise you begin excusing yourself. You must see the writing as emerging like a long scroll of ink from the index finger of your right hand; you must see your left hand erasing it.”
-Margaret Atwood

"People always do crazy things when they're in love..."
-Hercules

"Sometimes you've got to let someone trip on their own shoelace before you tell them to tie their shoe."
-Beastie Boys

I wish i could wear heels and walk in them.
Something about being my height and at the same time avoiding attention and trying to blend in that keeps me from adding inches via footwear.